Another Blue Christmas Without You
Sunday, December 26, 2004

Another "BLUE CHRISTMAS WITHOUT YOU" my SUNSHINE... missing you so very much Aaron...

Thank you for not expecting too much from me this holiday season.

It is my second Christmas without Aaron and I have all I can do coping with the "spirit of the holiday" on radio, TV, in the newspapers and stores. I do not feel joyous and trying to pretend that this Christmas is going to be like the last Christmas with Aaron, it will be impossible because we are missing one.

Our family traditions will be too painful for me to continue this year, like it was last year. Please understand this and maybe some Christmas in the future we will have these traditions again.

Please allow me to talk about my child, if I feel a need. Don’t be uncomfortable with my tears. My heart is breaking and the tears are a way of letting out my sadness.

I plan to do something special in memory of my child. Please recognize my need to do this in order to keep our memories alive. My fear is not that I’ll forget, but that you will.

Please don’t criticize me if I do something that you don’t think is normal. I’m a different person now and it may take a long time before this different person reaches an acceptance of my child’s death.

As I survive the stages of grief, I will need your patience and support, especially during these holiday times and the "special" days throughout the year.

Thank you for not expecting too much from me this holiday season.


Global News aired another news clip, asking for those that witnessed my Son's horrific violent attack and stabbing on August 17th 2003... to PLEASE come forward and tell the truth about what they saw. Aaron's killer(s) are still free, walking amongst us here in Calgary... celebrating Christmas... NO JUSTICE for Aaron... 497 days have passed since my Nightmare began...

Please pray with me that during this Christmas Season,
a special time of PEACE, JOY and LOVE... someone will come forward and tell the truth about who committed this evil act and decided that Aaron did not have the right to live as they do... and played GOD... for no man has the right to take another man's life...